Wednesday, November 17, 2010


another belly
grows, and I hate that I ask
why not me instead?

Such beautiful truth courtesy of Jenny of the soap scum scavenger

Friday, October 15, 2010


on the cusp of birth
disbelief still reigns, as if
this is just dreaming

Courtesy of me.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010


on pins and needles…
…aware of every twinge…
evil PIO!

Courtesy of Linda @ “I’ve Got Bad Plumbing
In the 2WW of IVF Cycle #6

Friday, February 19, 2010


Here I am again
Kneeling on the bathroom tile
Praying for two lines.

Courtesy of sweet Megan, Bottoms off and On the Table who is having the shittiest day ever.

Thursday, February 11, 2010


it's winning the war
so if you lose a battle
don't let it kill you

Great advice courtesy of sweet Maddy (of Mad Hatter, late for a very important pregnancy)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010


please please please please please
please please please please please please please
oh! please please please please

courtesy of me, kate

Monday, January 25, 2010


So many, I see,
Giving up on their own eggs.
I'm glad they've found peace.

And yet...I wonder
About where my journey ends,
With a baby, please?

Courtesy of Maddy (Late for a very important pregnancy)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010


Still want motherhood
No more sex or treatments now
Will adoption work?

The price to be mom
It’s so much higher for us
Emotion and cash

Sunday, November 29, 2009


4, Take 4

align ... divide ... rest
warm petrie bed, floating safe
four hopes sleep tonig

Courtesy of Linda of I've got bad plumbing, written after her 4th IVF retrieval

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

#39 and 40

My body betrays
me, I don't understand why
What is the answer?

Two years we have tried
Others have tried much longer
O' Child, where are you?

Courtesy of sweet Jenn (the sushi loving princess)

Sunday, October 18, 2009


colors shift and change
and leaves fall in big clouds of
orange, yellow, red

then comes snow. my heart says
Wait! I am not quite ready
this change is so fast!

(I am, by nature
slow). Snow is falling, thick, fast
the size of cornflakes

it cannot wait for
me to become ready, it
is already falling

Courtesy of Me, in snowy new hampshire

Friday, October 9, 2009

Lovely blog award

Lovely blog award
for heartfelt heartsick haiku
thank you Mad Hatter!

Thursday, September 3, 2009


Tug of War

Nine years and counting
My body wants to give up
But my heart will not

We should keep trying
When will enough be enough?
Can't make up my mind

Courtesy of Anonymous

Monday, August 17, 2009


Fuck you period
Why won't you bloody well come?
I hate you. Please come.

TRUTH courtesy of Mad Hatter

Sunday, August 16, 2009

#34 & #35

A dream lit in me-

And faded before I woke.

Put me back to sleep


I tried for so long-

I thought I finally won,

God knew the real score.

2 lovely haikus courtesy of Kate @ twoweekwait

Friday, August 14, 2009


Each time you wonder
maybe this, maybe this will
be the thing that works

Courtesy of me

Sunday, August 2, 2009

#31, #32

two week wait? I wish.
my two weeks have turned to three
I'm ready: yes? no?

come on positive!
I am ready to see you
come on two sweet lines!

Courtesy of impatientMe

Thursday, July 23, 2009


Living on eggshells
Treading softly, carefully
Afraid to feel joy

Courtesy of Mad Hatter

Wednesday, July 22, 2009



I am so grateful
Blogging let me meet new friends
Just like my sweet Kate

Awwww. Courtesy of Jenn at Infertile Sushi-Loving Princess


The Universe grows
I pray it expands to give
me one more to love

A midnight Haiku courtesy of IF Optimist