Sunday, November 29, 2009


4, Take 4

align ... divide ... rest
warm petrie bed, floating safe
four hopes sleep tonig

Courtesy of Linda of I've got bad plumbing, written after her 4th IVF retrieval

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

#39 and 40

My body betrays
me, I don't understand why
What is the answer?

Two years we have tried
Others have tried much longer
O' Child, where are you?

Courtesy of sweet Jenn (the sushi loving princess)

Sunday, October 18, 2009


colors shift and change
and leaves fall in big clouds of
orange, yellow, red

then comes snow. my heart says
Wait! I am not quite ready
this change is so fast!

(I am, by nature
slow). Snow is falling, thick, fast
the size of cornflakes

it cannot wait for
me to become ready, it
is already falling

Courtesy of Me, in snowy new hampshire

Friday, October 9, 2009

Lovely blog award

Lovely blog award
for heartfelt heartsick haiku
thank you Mad Hatter!

Thursday, September 3, 2009


Tug of War

Nine years and counting
My body wants to give up
But my heart will not

We should keep trying
When will enough be enough?
Can't make up my mind

Courtesy of Anonymous

Monday, August 17, 2009


Fuck you period
Why won't you bloody well come?
I hate you. Please come.

TRUTH courtesy of Mad Hatter

Sunday, August 16, 2009

#34 & #35

A dream lit in me-

And faded before I woke.

Put me back to sleep


I tried for so long-

I thought I finally won,

God knew the real score.

2 lovely haikus courtesy of Kate @ twoweekwait

Friday, August 14, 2009


Each time you wonder
maybe this, maybe this will
be the thing that works

Courtesy of me

Sunday, August 2, 2009

#31, #32

two week wait? I wish.
my two weeks have turned to three
I'm ready: yes? no?

come on positive!
I am ready to see you
come on two sweet lines!

Courtesy of impatientMe

Thursday, July 23, 2009


Living on eggshells
Treading softly, carefully
Afraid to feel joy

Courtesy of Mad Hatter

Wednesday, July 22, 2009



I am so grateful
Blogging let me meet new friends
Just like my sweet Kate

Awwww. Courtesy of Jenn at Infertile Sushi-Loving Princess


The Universe grows
I pray it expands to give
me one more to love

A midnight Haiku courtesy of IF Optimist

Tuesday, July 21, 2009



Courtesy of Jenn at Infertile Sushi-Loving Princess


Stars around the moon
Sparkle in the darkness
One dives into her light!

Courtesy of Mad Hatter

Sunday, July 19, 2009


Waiting for the moon.
Will I catch a comet in
my womb? Midnight wish

Gift courtesy of IF Optimist

Saturday, July 18, 2009


the magical thing
about the two week wait is
it lasts forever

Courtesy of me

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

#21, #22, #23

I was worrying
about my follicle counts
not ovulation

horse out of the barn
and me? I am standing in
the doorway, watching

the thing I worry
about is rarely the thing
that ends up failing

Courtesy of me

Sunday, July 12, 2009


Oh, to go fishing
I want to teach my child how
Why is that so hard?

Courtesy of Mr. W

Friday, July 10, 2009


is this just a dream
or a hallucination
how did i get here

Courtesy of Lisa

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

#16, #17, #18

it is amazing
how hope drives me to inject
my belly each day

one part science, two
parts magic and more hope than
almost anything.

just this once I want
to say no, I won't do it
but I'd be lying.

Courtesy of me

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

#14, #15

Hot sweaty pig sex
Instead of sex on demand
Oh I miss those days!

Ovaries shrivel
Uterus is aging too
Am I too old now?

Courtesy of sweet SushiJenn


lost my embryo
ivf shattered my heart
all that for nothing

Courtesy of Sassy


my boobs: no infant
to suckle and destroy them
they stand on their own

Courtesy of Wifey


My uterus sucks
It killed all my babes to be
Fucking Uterus

Courtesy of JoAnne

Sunday, July 5, 2009


another pee stick
another damn negative
time to start again

Courtesy of me

Saturday, July 4, 2009


in the 2ww
afraid of another loss
afraid it will work

Courtesy of the divine Meinsideout

Thursday, July 2, 2009

#7, #8

Bun in the oven
Is what I wish I could have
My oven won't work

Is good for making haikus
It's five syllables

Courtesy of Mrs. W.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009


Journey of a Dad
Long, confusing, sometimes sad
Worth it and wanted

Courtesy of my darlin'


Ode to addiction :
Even though I know better, yes
I peed on the stick

Courtesy of moi


I feel a soft twinge
Where is my 
bundle of joy?
Aunt Flo is a whore

Courtesy of IF Optimist


I would give it all

For just one moment in time

To hold my baby

Courtesy of K.


the art of haiku

may be the best we will do

while hope leads us through

courtesy of David.


sucks rocks and other hard things
might as well make art